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Sunday, May 30, 2010

Confidence is a Beautiful Thing

Have you ever taken a moment to stop and stare at yourself? Like really stop and stare at yourself? I’m not talking about taking a glimpse in the mirror, touching up and heading out. Do you ever catch yourself wondering who's staring back at you? Who is that girl staring back at you? Do you ever question who you are?

Being a plus sized woman isn’t easy. It takes a lot getting used to and accepting yourself for what you are and what you have. Not all plus sized woman have fully accepted their bodies and are still battling insecurity issues.

If you’re anything like me, you’ve come to that mirror, stared at yourself and were repulsed by what you saw. You tell yourself how anyone could possibly want your body and you constantly put yourself down. Day by day you wish to be a skinnier you, to be more fit, and to lose weight. But do we do it? Do we actually get it done? Most of the time we do not.

Ladies, it is time we accept our bodies for what they are! BIG AND BEAUTIFUL, THICK & GORGEOUS! No more pessimistic thoughts and putdowns from our greatest enemies! OURSELVES. It’s time we stop and stare at that mirror and ACCEPT, LOVE, AND ADMIRE what we have.

Once you’ve reached that point of appreciation towards your bodies you will truly become a more confident, more positive, and happier individual.

Confidence is truly a beautiful thing! And confidence will truly exude your sexier self. I am beautiful, I love my curves, and I am thick and gorgeous. I look at myself in the mirror today and love what I see! Building confidence isn’t easy but it definitely isn’t impossible, and it’s definitely easier than losing weight!

Plus sized woman are sexy! And with this blog I hope to inspire you to become a more confident plus sized woman too!

Monday, May 17, 2010

Christina Aguilera & Lady Gaga

Since the day Christina came out on stage in a leather suit signing "Keeps Getting Better", she's been critisized about looking and copying Lady Gaga's style. First of all, for those of you who don't follow Xtinas music and her work, the girl has been around for a decade and has a style of her own before Lady Gaga stepped into the music business. Do you all recall the day she walked down the red carpet in a massive fro and how everyone critisized her for being different. Apparently before Gaga came into the picture, all this was completely outrageous.


Christina Aguilera has always been different and has stepped out of the box we know as "normal". Gaga has her own sense of style and has defintely taken fashion up a notch and crossed boundaries that no one would ever dare to think of which makes her so great. But before Lady Gaga, we had Christina who attempted and did things that were out of the norm and everyone only critisized and ridiculed.

Christina has clearly stated she "thinks she is great, and appreciates any woman fearless enough to go against the norm" she goes on to say she "has absolutely nothing against Lady Gaga".

People need to relax and stop comparing these two ladies. Both are extremely talented in their own ways and we should appreciate them for what they are and what they contribue to our society, great music and lyrics we sing and dance to and a whole new world of fashion we can inspire from.

Delonte West tapping LeBron's Mom??

Rumor has it that Lebron's mother Gloria James is getting jiggy with Delonte West. Now this could be true, or it can be totally false and fabricated.   According to terezowens.com who claims has a  "reliable" source from Cleveland quotes his source saying "his uncle has been told that Delonte has been banging Gloria James (Lebron’s Mom) for some time now. Somehow Lebron found out before game four and it destroyed their chemistry and divided the team."

Now according to terezowns.com this source is reliable. But this is nothing more than a case of "he said, she said." First of all, this is not a reliable source because this quote did not come directly from the "uncle." This could have easily been taken out of context and the so called "source" could have easily fabricated a story.

By now, just about everyone beleives it's just a fabricated story. How could Delonte be into James' mother?! and what not. Different strokes for different folks, nobody is to say who or what kind of women these men are attracted to, if this rumor plays out it's a slap in the face to anyone thinking he'd never get with a woman like her, we are living in different times my friends; age and physical appearance arn't the main reasons men date women.

However, with this information and from the chemistry Lebron and Donte had on the court on game 4 moving forward, makes you question and even consider that this rumor could be true.

Finally, the story seems too extreme, the source is unreliable, and this could be just another story with an explanation as to why the Cavaliers lost. Either way, terezowens.com posted this news Saturday, and it's just now becoming hot news...I'm pretty sure we will be hearing from LeBron soon or someone is going to dig up all the dirt and either kill the rumor or just feed into it...

We'll see what happens!

Wonder Girls - 2 Different Tears

So who are the Wonder Girls? The Wonder Girls are a group of 5 young, beautiful, and very talented  ladies from South Korea.  They rock a ton of styles, one of my favorites being a modern look of the 70's and their music is pretty neat. They began marketing their music in the US last year in 2009 with a single called "Nobody". This single made the Billboard Hot 100 list, making them the first Korean group to make the list.

The group itself has had it's share of replacing members. Some due to illness, others due to changes in careers. Nonetheless, the group continues to strive forward in making it big in the US. 

I first listened to their song "2 Different Tears" last night while I was playing Tap Tap Revenge on my iPhone. I have to admit the song isgreat and it has a catchy beat.  To any girl who has been through the boy drama and often finds herself questioning "should I stay, should I leave" then this song can defintely become one of your favorites.

The song itself describes a girl who has a love/hate relationship with a boy who has put her through love/hate situations and she's reflectiving whether or not she wants to continue moving forward with this boy despite all the things he's put her through and she finds herself contradicting herself crying over this boy yet still wondering why she wants to continue seeing him because the pain wasn't so bad and what not.

Their single "Nobody" is prettey self explanatory. They are talking about the love for a boy and how they want "nobody" but him.  It's very repetitive and theres not much to the song. Their song "2 Different Tears" seems like it may have more success over "Nobody."

If you want more information on The Wonder Girls check out their myspace at:
http://www.myspace.com/wondergirlsusa

Their website:
http://wondergirlsworld.com/

Youtube:
http://youtube.com/wondergirls

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Tony

It was a Thursday night in October when Alexa decided to check out a local bar in downtown Monterey. She had just got off work and didn't feel like dressing up too much, specially on a Thursday night and for a bar she had never been to. She had been hearing about a bar called "The Mucky Duck" and how hype it gets every day of the week. Great music, outdoor heated patio, fire pits, great drinks, and hot guys! She had to try it out.

That night Alexa threw on some black heels, a fitted, brown, low cut v-neck top that hugged her figure nicely and flowed right down her waist and rested nicely over her tight fitted jeans. She threw on a green blazer, touched up her all natural looking makeup and out the door she went. Alexa normally took friends along but this time, she went solo.

As Alexa parked her car a few streets down the pub, she was able to hear the crowd roaring with laughs and the music bumpin loud through the night. She made her way around the corner and finally made it to the entrance. She showed her ID as usual and made her way through the Pub. It was a nice spot, warm and cozy on the inside. Dining tables were to the left and right sides of the inside where couples dined and mingled with each other. She was able to see the patio from a distance and as she made her way towards the back she came to an abrubt stop!

"where you going beautiful?" said a black male in a green shirt labeled "security"
"I'm going to the back, what's the problem?"
"Oh, you have to wait in line just like all the others" pointing towards a line that practically circled the whole restaurant
"are you serious?"
"Uh huh"

"So it really is poppin here" Alexa thought to herself.

"well can I atleast get through to use the ladies room?"
"no problem gorgeouz, just gimme your ID"
"sounds good" as she handed him her ID

She made her way towards the ladies room, touched up and took a peek out towards the patio. The music was crackin, bodies were grinding on the dancefloor, drinks were spilling, and bodies were mingling. Alexa didn't want to wait to get back there so she was considering going home. She went back and decided to wait a while hoping the line would move quickly. As she made her way back towards the security gaurd to get her ID he stops her again.

"Here you are beautiful, go on."
"Go on...? You mean...I dont have to wait?"
"Nah, but you better hurry before I change my mind"
"Ur awesome!"
"No You're just beautiful"
"Thanks" she said waving him goodbye

And with the greatest smile ever she made her way towards the patio and headed strait to the bar. She ordered her first round of drinks and instantly grabbed the first stool she could get her behind on. There she sat just enjoying her drink and moving her body to the rhythm of the music. She watched as couples were bumping and grinding their bodies all over eachother on the dancefloor. Oh how she envied those women and how they could dance so good, specially how they managed to make the booty clap. She'd catch her self giggling at herself and the silly thoughts that ran through her mind.

"I wish I can shake my ass like that!" she thought to herself.
"that bitch, i hate her!" she laughed and nodded at her own thoughts

Then something happened. She felt a strong sense over her. She looked off to the left side and there he was. Who knows how long this man was looking at her for, long enough for her to sense his sight over her.

"And who might you be?" she thought to herself.

Alexa looked away and tried looking around her. Was he really looking at her? She had to make sure so she got up to order another drink. As she made her way back to the stool she was perched on she realized no other females were around so it had to be her this guy was looking at.

"Well I ain't going over there!" she thought to herself again
"If you want some come get some" she smirked to herself

And just a spell casted from a book, he began to approach her.

"OMG, am I good or what" she smirked again as she stared him strait on
She felt her heart pumping and beating rapidly and suddenly felt the alcohol level rise in her blood.
"Relax, you don't want to make a fool of yourself" she thought to herself

Alexa observed as he approached. He looked so handsome from afar. He was tall, maybe six feet tall, tanned, and very very attractive. He was wearing a beanie hat that night, a green and white fitted baseball tee with a beige jacket that exposed the fitted tee hugging his smooth looking defined chest. His jeans fit him nicely, not too loose, not too tight and he wore some Puma running shoes.

She kept her glance focused on his eyes as he made his way towards her. Something about the way they looked at eachother as he made his way toward her really made everything feel as if it was frozen in time.

"Hi, you all alone?"
"No, my girls are dancing, I'm just enjoying a good drink." Of course she lied, he didn't have to know she was their all alone, for all she knew he could be some phycho stalker or something.
"What are you drinking?" he asked as he sized up her drink
"A Midori Sour, it's a girly drink" she said with a giggle
"I'm not a heavy drinker, and I dont like beer so shots or mixed drinks will do" as she raised her cup at him and took a drink from her straw. "what are you drinking?"
"Water" he says..."Iced water"
"You must be the designated driver" she guessed
"Yup, that's me." he confirmed. "So what's your name?"
"Alexa" she replied "What's yours?" she asked
"My name is Tony, it's nice to meet you Alexa" and he formally introduced himself giving her his hand for a shake.
"It's nice to meet you too, Tony." she replied.

The two continued on talking and enjoying each others company and danced a few songs together. She loved looking at him, and feeling his arms each time they danced together. She can only imagine what the rest of him felt like. She'd blush and smile at herself each time she provoked naughty thoughts of him.

"I'm only human" she thought to herself.

The end of the night was fast approaching and she was wondering how she was going to manage getting away with lying about her so called friends who were no where around. Luckily, Tony's friends started to make chaos and were asked to leave the bar.


"Looks like I gotta go. We should get together sometime, maybe we can have some fun on our own?"
"I'm always up for a good time." She replied with a smirk

They exchanged numbers and Alexa quickly made her way to her car once she noticed Tony leave.

On her drive home she couldn't help but think of Tony and how hot he was and all the things they could do together. Of course, Alexa was not interested in relationships or love for that matter. She was ready to take the bull by the horns and enjoy the ride.

She'd hope he'd call soon.