Outfits of the Week

Happy Friday!

TGIF! I have had such a busy and crazy week. Juggling between work and school, I feel I sound like a broken record. I'm constantly complaining about how busy I am. I have  never been this busy. Last semester I had 3 classes and worked too, but this fall semester I totally forgot to take into consideration Harvest season.

Harvest season is the busiest time of year for any winery. It's when we harvest grapes, crush them, and process the juice into wine.  I have so much data entry it's ridiculous. Sometimes my whole day is consumed by data entry.

 

Other day's I'm running around like a chicken with my head cut off. I'm setting up tastings for VIP visitors, I'm picking up lunches out of town, and I'm setting up picnic areas at the private park we have towards the back of the vinyards. I dont mind busy days because they make days go by that much faster, but now with the Fall semester in session, I didn't take into mind just how busy I normally get at work. I'm guessing next Fall semester I'm only going to take 2 classes and during the Spring I can do my regular 3 or 4 classes because work is not so hectic and I go back to working 4 day's a week which leaves me with 3 day weekends hence giving me more time for study, homework, and even some me time. 

Right now my day's go by so fast, my weekends feel like a blur. I feel I wake up Saturday morning and next thing I know I'm back to work on Monday. I feel I get no rest and I never have time for myself! Im managing though, it will all be worth it in the end!

Anyway, enough abot all the stress in my life, now let's get to the fun part. I'm going to add some pictures of some of the outfits I wore this week and last Friday. I wasn't able to do videos for each outfit but did manage to get a few. For now, I'll leave you with these pictures and stay tuned for some of the outfits in a video as well :)

Hope everyone is enjoying their day! xoxo Mayra

Friday, September 17th, 2010 

What I'm Wearing:

Purple Cardigan - Ross

Purple Top with Black Splatter (looks like leopard but its not) - JCP

Jeggings - Torrid

Knee High Boots - Ross

And then....because ya'll know how much I love taking pictures, I decided to take some creative shots in our restroom.  Here's what I came up with:

Saturday, September 18th 2010 

I'm wearing a lot of earthy and neutral tones. This is the day I went to the Jazz Festival with my good friend Mazo. I'll have to do a separate post just for that day so I can share with you all some Do's and Don'ts we came across. The day was full of LOL's and fun! So stay tuned for that post.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

I really wanted you guys to see my boots! lol So I'm being all acrobatic in the restroom! lol

 This picture looks funny, It's not my favorite but it's the only full body pic I have for this outfit!

You can't really see the boots because of the lighting. I had my co-worker take it for me and she just wanted to get it over with I was like "gee, thanks" lol. Anyway, it will do for now. I'll probably wear this outfit again soon.  This picture was taken in the downstairs area of our winery. The lighting is perfect, but I didn't want to ask my co-worker for too much so I figured where she took the picture was fine, now had I taken the picture myself, I woulda been working that damn hallway lol :) Okay...Moving on...

Thursday, September 23rd, 2010

These jeans are becoming one of my favorite pairs!

And finally Today's Friday, September 24th, 2010 OOTD is...

I'll post it later cuz I'm gonna start doing some data entry and quite frankly I havn't even taken a picture yet lol :) Maybe I'll do an OOTD on my lunch break or a makeup tutorial cuz I didn't even do that this morning. Today's outfit is very casual though, once I get a picture I'll insert it here. I'll just show you guys my shoes though, and nope, No heels or flats todays...well Flats yes...but I'm wearing my favorite "tennis" shoes :) I need a new pair cuz these are becoming rinky dinky lol

Okay, So I ended up going to the restroom and taking a quick picture! I look scary lol it was too early anyway...Here's what I'm wearing today. I'll do the makeup and OOTD video this afternoon when I get home since It's Friday, and I ain't got Sh*t to do =) lol Well actually, I  have lots of ish to do, like homework and study for my exam on Monday! lol Hope everyone is enjoying their day :)

I love my Puma's! Puma is my favorite sneaker brand. I know these are all beat up but I love them so much I can't get rid of them quite yet!! I need a new pair bad! =)

Fall Ready - Face & OOTD



Products Used:

Too Faced Shadow Insurance Primer

Bare Study Paint Pot

MAC Intriguing Scarlet: 6 Warm Eyes Palette (2009 XMas Collection)
(Colors Used: All colors that for the letter "C")
Creme blush in Cheeky
Almay One Coat Nourishing Mascara
Nutmeg Lipliner
Brave New Bronze Lipstick (Style Warriors Collection)
Ultimate Shine Lip-color (Thanks Audrey! Luv it)

THE OUTFIT:
I had to deliver those "modelesque" poses for my girl Audrey!
(And I had to liven up the backround so I included some props lol)

THE VIDEO


Xoxo Mayra!

Rihanna - Only Girl

So I'm here listening to Rihanna's "Only Girl" again...after writing a big ass blog only to hit "save" and piece of shit slaps me with "please sign in to continue" and therefore I lose it all!! Aint that a fuckn bitch!

I'm super mad right now. I've been having a shitty ass day and now this. Seems like my day is just getting worst by the minute. And now this song is having me want to pull my hair and run on the beach. I guess I'm at that stage of my wonderful single life where I'm just longing to be with somebody (or maybe Its signs of my period) and that's why I'm such an emotional wreck.  But it's funny how, I've been in relationships and I wish I was single and now I'm single and I want a relationship....or not necessarily a relationship...but real love..duh...which evolves from friendship into something more special which then leads to a relationship. I know this time I am not going to settle and that is why I am happy to be single. Life is much easier being on your own. You dont have to worry about giving anyone explanations of anything and you only rely on yourself to make it or break it. So until the right guy comes along, I'm going to enjoy  my single life (and the dating too). I did mention I was quite the dating whore right....hey what can I say, theirs plenty of fish in the sea, so might as well taste a few before you can really stick with one you call a favorite, wouldn't you agree? lol

I listen to this song and I think of him. Seriously, this is my anthem song right now. The lyrics are on point with what I feel and how I wish I could be that girl!!

I'm pretty aggravated at this point. I love and hate this song. Love it because what girl doesn't want to be the only girl for a guy. What girl doesn't wish she had a man that she knew only had eyes for her and didn't even think of being with another girl. What girl doesn't want that reassurance of having a man she can really say is hers and she his. I know I do. What girl doesn't want to have that control over a guy, make him swallow his pride, just as much as he'd do to her. To live your life with that piece of mind knowing you're the only one...must be really nice.

But what if you aren't the only girl. What if there are plenty others. Then ur probably one hating ass bitch right now. I know I am too. lol See, that's why I love and hate this song. I hate it because I'm not the only girl. I wish I was though. I wish I could be. I want to know what being the only girl feels like. Wouldn't you?  Ur probably hating too because you want to be the only girl you get frustrated and you feel you aint that girl and maybe you are just wasting your time, yet you hold on because you want to see if you could be that girl!

Damn it!! I "just want you to make me feel like Im the only girl in the world, like I"m the only one you'll EVER love, like I'm the only one who knows your heart, like I'm the only one who's in command, cuz i'm the only one who understands how to make you feel like a man" damn it!! seriously, like wow Rihanna, you hit home with that one. And the beat! I feel like having a few shots of tequila and just sit back in a dark room in a lounge somewhere, enjoy a drink and listen to this song and just fantasize and dream and stick my head up in the clouds where it will probably remain till I meet the man I'd become the only girl to.

I think I'm at this point in my single life where I'm starting to long for someone (or maybe I'm just about to get my period or something) cuz I'm an emotional wreck lately.

I love and I hate it because as the song plays, my head is up in the clouds with this illusion, this make beleive fantasy guy then once u know the song is over...(sigh)...back to reality...ur alone =) and hating the song for making u want what you dont have...YET.

 I want to meet the guy who I'd be the only girl to. I want him to take me like a thief in the night, hold me like a pillow and make me feel right. I'll tell him I'll my secrets and let him come inside, want him to make me feel like I'm the only girl...or maybe I just want to find the only guy I wont want anyone else over. Yea...that's it too.

[VERSE 1:]
I want you to love me, like I'm a hot guy
Keep thinkin' of me, doin' what you like
So boy forget about the world cuz it's gon' be me and you tonight
I wanna make your bed for ya, then Imma make you swallow your pride

[CHORUS:]
Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world...
Like I'm the only one that's in command
Cuz I'm the only one who understands how to make you feel like a man
Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only one...

[VERSE 2:]
Want you to take me like a thief in the night
Hold me like a pillow, make me feel right
Baby I'll tell you all my secrets that I'm keepin', you can come inside
And when you enter, you ain't leavin', be my prisoner for the night

[CHORUS:]
Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world...
Like I'm the only one that's in command
Cuz I'm the only one who understands, like I'm the only one who knows your heart, only one...

[BRIDGE:]
Take me for a ride
Oh baby, take me high
Let me make you first
Oh make it last all night
Take me for a ride
Oh baby, take me high
Let me make you first
Make it last all night

[CHORUS:]
Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world...
Like I'm the only one that's in command
Cuz I'm the only one who understands how to make you feel like a man
Only girl in the world...
Girl in the world...
Only girl in the world...
Girl in the wolrd

This song really hit home!

So Ladies....if you have this...I'M HATING ON YOU! lol j/k...
If you ahve this at home, take care of it, and let him know ur the only girl too because a lot of women have good men and dont even take care of them then when he leaves ur bitchy ass for a girl who truly appreciates it, then you want him back...Kinda like how men dog girls...girls do the same dirty shady shit! So take care of your man you hooch's! Cuz just like women get fed up with men, men do too!

YOUTUBE/GOOGLE SUPPORT FAIL

GOOGLE, all I want is for you to give me access to the channel I own! Please!!!


So as I mentioned in my new channel how I no longer have access to my original Youtube Channel I have tried countless times to reset my password, I have searched through forums of help and nothing happens. My problem can't be resolved.

I got an email saying they can't verify I won the channel and therefore can't give me the information.  What I dont understand is why suddently I'm in my channel one day and the next day I can't log in. I just want my channel back. That's all. Is that so hard?? The help support center for Youtube and google sucks! They give you the run around and you can't even describe your problem and the options they give you suck! They dont help at all.

Now my videos will be on YT forever and I can't even go back and delete the account if I wanted. I have my group on there, all my subscribers and everything. I even got an email this morning for partner! lol Ain't that a bitch! I could defintely use some extra change in my pocket cuz I'm a broke student living paycheck to paycheck and times are tough!! But I can't even do that now :(

Anyway...this sucks.

Here's what google says:

Thank you for your report. We've completed our investigation and cannot

return your account at this time. We were unable to verify that you own
this account based on the information you provided.

If you can provide additional information to verify that you own this
account, please visit
http://www.google.com/support/accounts/bin/request.py?ara=1 and submit
another report. Whether we can return access to this account depends on
the strength and accuracy of your responses, so be sure to provide as much
information as possible. If you're unsure about specific dates or
information, provide your best guess.

BOOOOOO!

He said he's falling for me

September 10th, 2010. He said he was falling in love with me. How could this be. I ask myself and I wonder if this is possible. I have been wanting to meet him for the past 9 months and it seems as though the time to meet him might be approaching sooner than I had expected.

I almost lost interest, well no. I wouldn't say I lost interest, but I started to become hopeless in the idea of actually  meeting the Parole Officer one day. I have been talkign to him for 9 months now and he refuses to meet up with me when we live in the same town and all.

I know a lot of women must think I'm quite the fool for continuing this "relationship" I have with the Parole Officer, but other women don't know what I do and they dont feel what I do. I never really had this heart/gut feeling about a guy like I do with him. Maybe it's because he seems like my true prince charming and I fall into that fairytale of a dream, being swept off my feet by this wonderful guy and build a life with. But then I step  back into reality and realise how scared I am.

I have already been in two relationships. One lated 2 1/2 years and the other 3 years. At one point I realised I didnt' see the rest of my life with either one of my exes, and well...they became just that. I try to look back on my relationships and I feel nothing for my exes. My first ex, Victor I have a lot of love for, and he's like a shoulder to cry on and a good friend and nothing more. He really loved me and I loved him but he just wasn't the man of my dreams and therefore we split. Roger, I dont know what the hell I was thinking when I was with him. I changed so much for him and although I dont have regrets, I really really dont understand why I put up with him for 3 years. I was truly blinded by him. Although we ended the relationship on good terms, I really dont care talking to him, following up, or just having anything to do with him. He was a phony. A total fake. A fraud. And for that, I feel this annoying feeling toward him. I get annoyed at myself for even allowing myself to have been with him for so long. Anyway...that's all said and done. I guess my point here is, and what I'm trying to say is I've never been in love.

Well, yes. I have been. I've only been in love once, and that was with my frist boyfriend ever. He truly swept me off my feet and I do got lots of love for him today. We still talk, communicate, and hook up from time to time for coffee and chit chat. Nothing more. He's married, he knows all about my ex's and my flings and he's never been one to judge me. I know he loves me just like I love him and it's a beautiful friendship we have.  Sometimes I wonder if he's my soulmate and if we'll end up together in another lifetime since we didn't make it together in this one. Although it is to soon to say we didn't make it together, becasause for all I know, we can hook up 20 years from now. This life is crazy.

Anyway. I've never loved a guy the way I loved Noe. And I'm not trying to make comparisons here, but I've never felt a love and pain for a guy the way I did for him.

I want to feel that again. I want to be swept off my feet by a guy. I want to have a beautiful loving relationshop. I want to fall in love and stay in love and fall in love all over again with the same guy. I want to feel that fire, those butterflies, and passion. I dont want it to be temporary, and I dont want it to go away once you end up living together. I really want to love and be loved. I want to feel appreciated by a man and I want to know what it feels like to be truly loved and not just LOVE somebody. 

I told myself this time I'd do everything so different. I've moved in with my two ex boyfriends too quick into the relationship and maybe that's why they ended fast too. I tell myself this time I'm going to take it super slow. I'm really going to let myself be known and get to know somebody.  I'm going to question if it's actually someone I continue seeing myself with and if not, then move on. I dont want to waste anyone's time or mine. I want to know what it feels like to just KNOW you want to be with someone for the rest of your life and I want to know what the thought of living without someone in your life feels like. I want to feel that certainty of not seeing myself with anyone else but that one guy.

I know this is crazy, but sometimes I feel like the Parole Officer just might be that guy.  He said he's falling for me, and until he told me that did I begin to feel nervous. I have been trying to meet this guy for so long and he finally tells me he's falling for me.  I'm scared. I know I'm going to take the risk, meet him eventually and see where things go, but in general...I'm scared. I dont want to be in and out of relationshiops my whole life. I want to marry someone one day, have kids, and settle down, and build a future and a family with someone I know loves me for me and wont ever leave me, cheat on me. I just want someone to respect me like I will respect them.

Sometimes I am afraid that I'm the one that doesn't know how to love. Sometimes I wonder if all my life I'll be in and out of relationships and if I'll keep falling out of love with guys. I wonder and wonder all the more and then I tell myself, I'll keep falling out of love with them until the right guy comes along who'll make me fall in love all over again.

I wonder what will be of the Parole Officer. He truly seems like Prince Charming and I'm his Cinderella.
For now, I'll end it here...but I have so much on my mind and need to let it out.