Starstruck at a Mixer

11/10: Manuel & I at a Mixer for the Chamber of Commerce

Wednesday, November 10th, my good friend Manuel put a mixer together for his work and invited me to join him and show support.  I have to admit that when I was asked to join him, I was procrastinating about coming to the mixer. Sure, I wanted to show some support to my friend, but the thought of being around people I did not know really scared me.  I'm an over thinker. Instead of taking action and really just grabbing the bull by the horns and doing something, I can overthink something so much to the point I discourage myself from trying something new .

So many thoughts run through my mind that I become overwhelmed.  Manuel practically had to hound my ass to go to the Mixer lol. He kept harrassing me, threatening me to go or else! lol.  Anyway, I ended up going beacuse I really did want to show him support and because he always invites me to places and I always end up flaking, but he flakes on me too, so we just laugh it off because in the end, it works for both of us lol.

Manuel and I have this friendship where he can call me a "fuckn bitch" and I can call him "a fuckn asshole" or my personal favorite "You fuckn douche" and we're still good friends! When we hang out it's trouble and all laughs and I love that I can have a friend I can talk shit to and with and just have a healthy amicable friendship....but anyway...enough of the douchebag...

So I end up showing my support for Manuel by going to this Mixer he kept harrassing me about, and I have to admit I really enjoyed myself and am very glad I went.  I didn't mingle as much as I would have liked to, but I wasn't all quiet and timid as I was scared shitless I'd be.  I did, however, really enjoy spending time off to the side and observe everyone's chemistry and everyones interaction with each other. 

I had my eye on one person most of the time and that was Manuel. (No, not like that lol) I've always known Manuel as a social butterfly. He's a natural socialite. Socialism comes natural to him and it's so damn smooth. That bastard. I found myself admiring him for the first time. It was a really pretty picture, a beautiful sight to see as corny as that sounds. He was so natural at striking conversations, coming off smooth and charismatic. He was cool, calm and collected. Greeting all the folks that arrived, chit chatting, mingling and easily carrying conversations.

When it was time for introductions, a few people spoke so highly of him.  Don't get me wrong, as I've mentioned before I've known him for a few years and I've known he's very smart and a career oriented professional, but today I saw this whole other side of Manuel and was almost starstruck.  So many poeple had so many wonderful things to say about him that were truly amazing and I see him in a differnt light now. He's still a douche, will always be in my eyes but he's one amazing douchebag, and I admire him, or at least did so this night...haha. Anyway, enough about the douche (yeah Manuel, you can wipe that smirk off your face now, I'm done talking about you lol). 

I also saw one of my teachers, who came out to show support for Manuel too. I hadn't seen him in 8 years and it was nice to see him. His name is Mr. Peterson. He gave me a few words of encouragement and really encouraged me to continue my education and pursue my dreams. That was awesome.

Later that evening, the Douche and I had a drink at Chilis where my Parole Officer happened to be at the same time, but you can read more about that here.

& It wasn't meant to be...



I dont know where to begin with this one. It was around 9pm and my friend Manuel called me and asked me to join him for a drink at Chillis. He picked me up around 9:45.  We got to chillis around 10pm. I remember thinking on my way to Chillis "what if". What if I meet him there, you know the parole officer. Then I said "psh, yea right, he's probably passed out by now". Anyway...those were the thoughts that ran through my mind. Next thing I know, we arrive, we walk in and get a table on the  bar side of Chillis.

So there we were, chit chatting as I tweeted and continued the conversation. There was a very loud group off to my right, Manuel was in front of me and my back was towards the main entrance. I remember chit chatting about how well the Mixer turned out and how much I admired Manuel that night. I don't normally say nice things to him, we're always bullshitting and talking shit to each other but it's always a bunch of laughs when we hang out. Anyway, I remember being distracted by one of the games as well, or they were running highlights, point is...lots of things were going on.

Manuel and I ended up leaving Chilis around 11:15pm. I remember telling him we were the last people inside, and before we left I remember a group of poeople leaving the restaurants main entrance and I also remember looking out the window and seeing some guy in a white jacket being picked up by another guy that was wearing a Giants jacket or something alike, I remember telling Manuel they were drunk or stumbling all over the place lol.

Anyway, this morning, I'm talking to my PO as I normally do.  I mentioned I had a headhache and he began to say if I had a headache for drinking too much at the Mixer.  He then began to tell me, he didn't plan on doing so, but went out with his cousins and some buddies to chill and have some drinks. I asked him where. He responded with saying Chillis. I was like OMG! I began questioning what time he was there, obviously because of the crazy randome thoughts that ran though my mind the night before and because I was curious to know if we were there at the same time. Well...turns out he left at 11pm. I left the place at 11:15! He was amongst the last group of people to leave!!! Aint' that about a bitch. We were in the same room at the same time and didn't even know it. I remember texting him saying good night around 8:30. He sleeps early because he has a 1.5 hour drive each morning around 5-6 am so therefore the old fart has to call it quits earlier in the evening. I remember texting him and I didn't get a response so I figured he was out cold. Turns out, he sent me a text saying he was at Chillis. A text I never received.

What a bitch! I felt so many things when he said he was there, in the same room at the same time! Specially because of the random thoughts that crossed my mind right before we got there. I swear I said what are the chances of us meeting here! Well the chances were def not good, but dang we were in the same building and we didn't even know it!! I have so many emotions right now that i dont even know how to put into words in order to describe. I was on the barside of Chillis and he was on the far right off of the main entrance and I was off to the left of the main entrance! There were a few instances where I wanted to get up and use the restroom and stupidly decided to hold it in! Had I gotten up to use the restroom, without a doubt we would have spotted each other!! Ai dios mio!! But again, what's meant to be will always find it's way, and it wasn't meant to be last night.

I keep telling myself it wasn't meant to be. And it's true. It wasn't meant to happen like this and I accept that. But just the thought of being in the same place at the same time kills me! He was so close to me, yet so far. Aint that a fuckn bitch! OMG. I just can't beleive it. I'm in awe.

I feel as though each day that passes we become closer and closer and the chances of meeting become more and more likely. I really want nature to take it's course and I want things to naturally fall into place the way god intends them to, but God please hurry! I'm anxious to meet him. 

Just a few weeks ago, we were in the same location as well. He was at a Sports Authority, and I was next door at Barnes&Noble. A few weeks before that, I was at Office Max, right after he had left!! And just last night, we were in the same location at the same time. and how I "magically" appeared before him on Twitter, which he doesn't even know how to use and lead him to my Blog and videos! C'mon now! As he likes to say "I was at the right place at the right time". And it's true... And just today, he says to me that he's going to be in So-Cal for Thanksgiving and guess who's gonna be in So-Cal for thanksgiving too! Yup. You guessed it. Your's Truly. Me. I told him, he should spend tiime with his family as I would do the same, and that he should take me out to one of the many places he said he'd love to take me to in So-Cal, he responded with I'll let you know if it's for sure. I guess it's not set in stone, weather he's going to visit his grandparents in So-Cal or if his Grandparents are coming up north. But the way life goes, I wouldn't be surprised if his abuelos came up North.

I know I'm not tripping out. It really seems as though things are slowly taking their course and I feel like we're a seed that's been planted, our stems have grown, and we're at the peak of blooming. Slowly things are coming together, and what's meant to be will always find it's way .I really can't wait to meet him. It's driving me crazy, but I feel as though it's almost here and I'm trying really hard to be patient because I know this is going to be special :)

Plus Size OOTD - Cool, Calm, and Collected




Cute, Comfy, & Chic...and absolutely inexpensive!



I'm Wearing:

-White Collared Tunic Top with Center Button Closure

-Olive/Tanned Cardigan w 3/4 of a cuffed sleeves

-Brown Leggings

-Black Knee High Boots

-Olive & Creme Colored Scarf

Today's outfit is one of my favorites in a while. It's very laid back, comfortable and casual all while being trendy and chic.  I purchased the white collared top at a local store called Choice Plus (no website). I purchased the Olive toned cardigan at Ross which came with the belt that I have over the white top underneath. I paired the top up with some brown leggings I purchased at Wal*Mart for about 6 dollars and finally paired my outfit with some knee high boots which I also purchased at Ross.

I love the cardigan because it has a really  nice drape. It takes care of all my problem areas and adds figure to my body with the drape and flow of the cardigan. The boots are extremely comfortable, making it easy to walk in all day with not a bother in the world and if it rains you're safe from getting your feet wet :).

I only had the chance to take a few pictures during my lunch break, but since I have to stick around till 5:30 for a Mixer my friend invited me to, I'll take some pictures when I get off work. Then off I go to the Library to meet with my buddy to study and work on some homework assignment that's due tomorrow.

I'll update you all later :)

xoxo

Mayra

Day 08

 Short term goals for this month and why

1. Organize my room, because it still looks like I just moved in yesterday
2. No more shopping till Black Friday because I really dont need anything till the winter season begins
3. Start working out again...because I'm paying for a membership that I'm not even using
4. Blog more often and get back on my creative writing and short stories because I have been lacking big time!
5. Make my dental appointment because it's been a whole month overdue and my tooth is hurting :(
6. Get everything together for Blog/YT/FB sale because I have dropped the ball and need to pick it up again
7. Prepare for my new contest and have all gifts ready to go for shipping so there wont be a lag time this time around
8. Finish reading the book you started reading months ago...and begin book reviews on YT or Blogger
9. Do at least 5 goals from this list

A walk through the Vinyards

This morning I woke up on the good side of bed! I feel great!! I just feel in such an amazing mood it's ridiculous. I took a walk through the vinyard and decided I wanted to take some pictures. I didn't have my camera on me so I took these with my phone and I have to say I'm pretty satisfied with the quality. I'll defintely be taking some more pictures this evening with my canon and maybe even do an OOTD video out in the wilderness as my girl Lisa likes to say lol.

Anyway, I wanted to see how posting from my phone would work and I guess so far so good! This is pretty awesome. I love my smart phone, it's my little hand held computer :).

I'll be back later and post some more, I think what I'll do now is catch up on some blog entries. I'll update this later with my outfit of the day. here are some more pictures I took. As you can see I was on a roll, but I really wanted to capture a lot of the Fall essence in my pictures. I then did some editing with photoshop express on iPhone and only changed the resolution, contrast, brightness and sharpness. Other than that, everything else is untouched :) I mean, theres only so much you can do on a phone lol.