Weighloss Update

I started my "weighloss" journey on Monday. I can't say it's an actual "journey" as I'm not on a specific diet or taking desperate measures. I'm simply avoiding the love of my life and my worst enemy all together: ice cream.

I have been eating better too. I've learned over the years that it's all about making better and smarter food choices. This week so far, I've had one soda and have been drinking a lot more water. I'm drinking at least 2 of these a day which account for at least 8 glasses a water a day.

I'm eating less tortillas, packing luch as usual and eating more fruits and salads.  I havn't completely cut out my mom's food because it's so irresistibly delicious but I have cut back on the tortillas.  I only pack three for lunch.  When I'm at home I tend to eat 5-6 tortillas with each sitting, possibly more.  While three tortillas may still be too much, it beats five to six tortillas each sitting two to three times a day, so I must say I'm doing pretty damn good.

Monday wasn't so good though I must say.  I started the day off very good, but towards the end of the day I was craving a frappuciino so bad that I opted for a Frappe from Mc'Donalds.  I drank one right before class on Monday and didn't have dinner, just a glass of milk and some calabasa my mom made in dulce.

Tuesday, I did the same. Had some fruit throughout the morning, had lunch, and snacked on a banana later in the evening before class and didn't eat passed 6pm.

Today, there are three muffins that keep eye balling me each time I'm on my way to the bathroom. They're just sitting there calling my name. I'm doing my best to think they're some evil muffins that just want to corrupt me! lol.  So far I'm doing good ignoring them, they can be really loud!! I know they hear me talking about them, evil bastards, why do they have to be so yummy :(

Why do we have to crave everything when we're trying so hard to be good?? I often wonder and analyze my eating habits and behavior and notice when I'm not "dieting" or "watching what I eat" I go on about my day not craving things, I just eat to eat, not so much because I'm hungy. Now that I'm trying to watch my weight I want it all but the satisfaction will only lead to guilt later. No thanks.

Anyway, I'll be getting on the scale by the end of the week! I hope it gives me good news :)

Interview Update

I've been meaning edit to the video I did after I had my interview last Friday and I've been doing what I do best when it comes to getting things done. PROCRASTINATE.

It's Wednesday and I havn't heard back from the interview panel which leads me to beleive I didn't land the job.  I'm not to worried about it.  The position was part time at the school district. It required that I become responsible for all the paperwork and transitioning of expelled students coming in/out of the district. A job like that will defintely keep my hands full all day without a doubt as oppossed to what I currently do.

Landing the job would have been nice but I'm not too overly concerned about it because I have a job as it is anyway, I'm just not happy with it anymore.  I think I'd be more concerned had I been unemployed.

I'm trying to make the best of what I do here.  There are times when I'm content not doing anything. Other days I'm utterly disgusted at the fact that I come here and do absolutely nothing. 

For a long time I didn't want to leave this place because I made bank for doing nothing. I know I will not find another job that will pay me what I make right now, specially for doing nothing.  I don't care about the money anymore.  I wanted to find a job that would satisfy me in more ways than one even if it meant I had to take a pay cut.  It feels a lot better making less money and doing something you love making bank and doing something you dont enjoy. Trust me, it can be depressing.

At the end of the day I can't say I'm upset.  I'm quite happy I was given the opportunity to meet and get an interview.  I hadn't been on an interview since I got this job almost 4 years ago, and I'd like to think I did pretty good. 

I'm quite the contradiction.  Soon after I left my interview I summed up the possibilities of me getting the job and was almost hoping I didn't get a call with a job offer. A lightbulb suddenly flicked on and I remembered that we get our yearly bonus in March. I already know what I'm gonna do with it.  I figured, I have plenty of time to find a part time job because in I wanted to go to school more often. Well the spring semester is already in session, which means I have until the Fall semester to find something part time so I can go to school in the mornings.

This will give me plenty of time to do some more research and possibly get more interviews. My mom is also up for surgery and I figured maybe a part time job wasn't such a good idea for the moment, considering she'll be disabled. She will have disability benefits but I rather have a more financially secure job until she gets better. In the end, I've already waited four years, what's a few more months right?

Then I remembered I'm going on a trip in March, so it's not in my best interest to take a pay cut right this instant.  Plus, I'm pretty sure a new employer will not be happy to know their new hire is going on a vacation just weeks into the job, I mean who does that?

Bottom line is I'm thankful for the interview I received and I've decided if I do get a call with a job offer, I will be forced to turn down the position because at the moment it's not in my best interest.  Something changed in me after that interview though, I feel as if it's empowered me and it feels great.

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Must Lose 15 Lbs in 1 Month!

Pretty drastic right??

Well...I'm hoping I can lose at least 15 pounds before my trip coming up in March!

I feel bad cuz I gained back all the damn weight I lost last year. I was doing so well but nooooo, I had to eat ice cream like a damn whore on crack! Okay, pretty drastic comparison but I was eating ice cream A LOT!

Once I noticed I was gaining weight I decided I needed to stop.

Funny how all of a sudden it just creeps on you.

I had been eating ice cream for a while and suddenly I noticed my arms got bigger and my waist started disapearring.

Now my roll hangs over my jeans once again! I really liked how my jeans used to slip off my waist! Oh no, not anymore, motha effers are holding on too tight now! lol.

So my journey to lose weight begins today because I cheated over the weekend and finished some ice cream we had in the freezer. I told the lady (my mom) that she coudn't and wasn't allowed to buy anymore ice cream! lol She too is trying to lose weight because we wouldn't always eat ice cream together, but I'd always eat more than her. 

So far, I've had 16 oz. of water, and a super fresh crisp apple and a cup of coffee. Coffee and water combined has driven me crazy just making runs to the rest room. For lunch, I will be having some arroz con pollo en chile verde. I'm sorry, I can't resist my mom's mexican food so I figured I'll eat early, and I'll just have a salad, some jello, and fruit througout the rest of the evening and plenty of water and I  need to start excercising! That's the hardest part. I'm just going to  dance for 30 minutes once I get home. That's excercise and I can sweat, specially when I try to "get low" or try to "make the booty pop" that makes my thighs burn like a motha!  I dont consider myself a great dancer but I try to mimic movements I see and omg it's a pain in the ass literally! I dont have that much strenth on my lower body! Anyway, as long as I break a sweat and get this body moving for 30 minutes I should be okay right??

We will see! For now, I'm going to keep this positive attitude I have about losing some Lbs and just keep myself motivated. I'm hoping if I continue blogging and speaking on it in my YT videos, then I will be forced to follow through and keep at it. That way I can have my girls check my ass too! That always seems to help :)

I'm Fondue Of You - OPI

I'm wearing a lot of neutrals today. Olives, white, and beige so I wanted to add a darker earthy tone onto my nails.  I'm Fondue Of You is another favorite of mine. It's a deep brown burundy wine tone with very tiny burgundy reflects.