Vacation Planning: Puerto Rico

So as some of you may or may not be aware, my trip to Puerto Rico is only 13 days away! I plan on making this trip memorable and will try to capture as much of the trip possible. 

I will be leaving with a group of friends and we all decided a weekly apartment rental for our stay there was the easiest and most economical way to go.  At first, we were going to get an apartment with the ocean view (pictured above) because it was only four girls going. Before finalizing and making a deposit two more girls decided to come along and therefore we needed a bigger place so we opted towards a bigger apartment around the corner from the first. 

The apartment is a whole lot bigger than the first choice and it's even cheaper for us with more girls coming along. Although we no longer have the beach view the beach is walking distance if any one of us decides to go relax in the sand. Besides, who's gonna be staring out the window anyway? I just hope the weather is nice enought to want to even go near the water!

Here's a collage  of our lovely apartment. I hope it looks this good when we get there! For now, I can say I'm already loving our 2nd chocie of an apartment better!

The setting reminds me of reality tv, 6 girls arriving at some location in a furnished home/apartment and live life like they know how! I have a feeling most of will be passed out all over the place lol.

I can't wait!!!!

Hello Stranger

Well Hello Hello!

A full week has passed since my last post. So much has happened since last wednesday when I felt at another low point in my life over some stupid boy...or maybe it wasn't the boy that was the problem it was me for allowing the idiot to ruin my days. The good thing is that I've put an ultimate end to that and since the guy knows how to be polite and respectful I've asked him to stay out of my life for good! And it's been good, and I'm so much better now and refuse and will not fall back into that mess again!

Anyway, a whole lot has been going on since last Wednesday. I had a four day weekend from work and did a whole lot of shopping! 

First I placed an order online with Torrid since they were having a really good sale and my package finally came in yesterday after what seem to take forever. I wasn't as fortunate as some you girls, whom I wont mention any names Liz or Crystal who happen to live around the corner from Torrid HQ lol oops, did I just mention names? It slipped lol

I ripped open my package last night and my mom was laying on the couch saying "que ordenaste ahora!" as if I hadn't already purchased enough over the weekend. I then told her "pero madre, eran unas ofertas buenisimas, tenia que aprovechar"  translation: "but mother, there was an awesome sale! I just had to take advantage!"  to  which she responds by saying "overas, es lo que me cuentas"  translation: "yea yea that's what you tell me"  lol I do have to admit I am guilty of giving her a white lie here and there when I've purchased things before but for the most part, everything I buy is always a good deal!

Anyway, my mother and I went shopping on Sunday which was awesome.  It's rare we actually get out doors cuz we're both home bodies and just love staying inside watching movies or eating lol.  After a day of shopping I took her to Olive Garden and had dinner there and finished just in time to come home and watch the novelas.  It was a pretty amazing weekend and I enjoyed it very much.

Now I'm only 2 weeks away from my trip to Puerto Rico and I'm super ecstatic about that as well! And how can I forget to mention I've purchased my dream camera! I've been reading the manual to get the jist of it and familiarize myelf with it and learn to navigate through it with ease and I have so many ideas and plans that revolve around this camera but I'll post more about that in due time.

For now, I'll close it here. I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend and short week! My weekend is a day away! Oh yea! ;)

Stupid Girl

I dont' know how I let him get me so down and out.  I ignored all the signs and fell like a fool.  I pushed him away and let him go and he returned time and time again.  Stupid tears I've shed for nothing.

Stupid girl you are

He never cared and lied through your screen, you always made up excuses for everything.  He moves on like a breath of air and you like a fish out of sea. 

Wet n Wild Lust Eyeshadow Pallet Look & Review

I purchased a few Wet n Wild eyeshadow pallets over the weekend and wanted to test them out myself since all I hear are great things about them.

Here is a makeup look I've created using the pallet. For my review, check out the video.

MAKEUP USED:

Lust Eyeshadow Pallet - Wet n Wild (above)

Blacktrack Fluidline

Mary Kay Ulitmate Mascara

Angelika Blush by Nars

Love Dove - MAC Slimshine Lipstick

xoxo Mayra

Valentines Day Makeup Look

 Makeup Used:

Urban Decay Book Of Shadows:

Snatch, Bordello, Last Call, Rockstar, Proversion, Uzi, Psychedelic Sister, Free Fall

Urban Decay 24/7 Eyeliner
MAC Blacktrack Fluid Line

Mary Kay Ultimate Mascara

Blush: Angelika by Nars (Thanks Crys)

Lips: MAC Brave New Bronze Lipstick

The Video / Tutorial

Weighloss Update

I started my "weighloss" journey on Monday. I can't say it's an actual "journey" as I'm not on a specific diet or taking desperate measures. I'm simply avoiding the love of my life and my worst enemy all together: ice cream.

I have been eating better too. I've learned over the years that it's all about making better and smarter food choices. This week so far, I've had one soda and have been drinking a lot more water. I'm drinking at least 2 of these a day which account for at least 8 glasses a water a day.

I'm eating less tortillas, packing luch as usual and eating more fruits and salads.  I havn't completely cut out my mom's food because it's so irresistibly delicious but I have cut back on the tortillas.  I only pack three for lunch.  When I'm at home I tend to eat 5-6 tortillas with each sitting, possibly more.  While three tortillas may still be too much, it beats five to six tortillas each sitting two to three times a day, so I must say I'm doing pretty damn good.

Monday wasn't so good though I must say.  I started the day off very good, but towards the end of the day I was craving a frappuciino so bad that I opted for a Frappe from Mc'Donalds.  I drank one right before class on Monday and didn't have dinner, just a glass of milk and some calabasa my mom made in dulce.

Tuesday, I did the same. Had some fruit throughout the morning, had lunch, and snacked on a banana later in the evening before class and didn't eat passed 6pm.

Today, there are three muffins that keep eye balling me each time I'm on my way to the bathroom. They're just sitting there calling my name. I'm doing my best to think they're some evil muffins that just want to corrupt me! lol.  So far I'm doing good ignoring them, they can be really loud!! I know they hear me talking about them, evil bastards, why do they have to be so yummy :(

Why do we have to crave everything when we're trying so hard to be good?? I often wonder and analyze my eating habits and behavior and notice when I'm not "dieting" or "watching what I eat" I go on about my day not craving things, I just eat to eat, not so much because I'm hungy. Now that I'm trying to watch my weight I want it all but the satisfaction will only lead to guilt later. No thanks.

Anyway, I'll be getting on the scale by the end of the week! I hope it gives me good news :)

Interview Update

I've been meaning edit to the video I did after I had my interview last Friday and I've been doing what I do best when it comes to getting things done. PROCRASTINATE.

It's Wednesday and I havn't heard back from the interview panel which leads me to beleive I didn't land the job.  I'm not to worried about it.  The position was part time at the school district. It required that I become responsible for all the paperwork and transitioning of expelled students coming in/out of the district. A job like that will defintely keep my hands full all day without a doubt as oppossed to what I currently do.

Landing the job would have been nice but I'm not too overly concerned about it because I have a job as it is anyway, I'm just not happy with it anymore.  I think I'd be more concerned had I been unemployed.

I'm trying to make the best of what I do here.  There are times when I'm content not doing anything. Other days I'm utterly disgusted at the fact that I come here and do absolutely nothing. 

For a long time I didn't want to leave this place because I made bank for doing nothing. I know I will not find another job that will pay me what I make right now, specially for doing nothing.  I don't care about the money anymore.  I wanted to find a job that would satisfy me in more ways than one even if it meant I had to take a pay cut.  It feels a lot better making less money and doing something you love making bank and doing something you dont enjoy. Trust me, it can be depressing.

At the end of the day I can't say I'm upset.  I'm quite happy I was given the opportunity to meet and get an interview.  I hadn't been on an interview since I got this job almost 4 years ago, and I'd like to think I did pretty good. 

I'm quite the contradiction.  Soon after I left my interview I summed up the possibilities of me getting the job and was almost hoping I didn't get a call with a job offer. A lightbulb suddenly flicked on and I remembered that we get our yearly bonus in March. I already know what I'm gonna do with it.  I figured, I have plenty of time to find a part time job because in I wanted to go to school more often. Well the spring semester is already in session, which means I have until the Fall semester to find something part time so I can go to school in the mornings.

This will give me plenty of time to do some more research and possibly get more interviews. My mom is also up for surgery and I figured maybe a part time job wasn't such a good idea for the moment, considering she'll be disabled. She will have disability benefits but I rather have a more financially secure job until she gets better. In the end, I've already waited four years, what's a few more months right?

Then I remembered I'm going on a trip in March, so it's not in my best interest to take a pay cut right this instant.  Plus, I'm pretty sure a new employer will not be happy to know their new hire is going on a vacation just weeks into the job, I mean who does that?

Bottom line is I'm thankful for the interview I received and I've decided if I do get a call with a job offer, I will be forced to turn down the position because at the moment it's not in my best interest.  Something changed in me after that interview though, I feel as if it's empowered me and it feels great.

Shoes! Tips & How to Rock 4" Heels!

Must Lose 15 Lbs in 1 Month!

Pretty drastic right??

Well...I'm hoping I can lose at least 15 pounds before my trip coming up in March!

I feel bad cuz I gained back all the damn weight I lost last year. I was doing so well but nooooo, I had to eat ice cream like a damn whore on crack! Okay, pretty drastic comparison but I was eating ice cream A LOT!

Once I noticed I was gaining weight I decided I needed to stop.

Funny how all of a sudden it just creeps on you.

I had been eating ice cream for a while and suddenly I noticed my arms got bigger and my waist started disapearring.

Now my roll hangs over my jeans once again! I really liked how my jeans used to slip off my waist! Oh no, not anymore, motha effers are holding on too tight now! lol.

So my journey to lose weight begins today because I cheated over the weekend and finished some ice cream we had in the freezer. I told the lady (my mom) that she coudn't and wasn't allowed to buy anymore ice cream! lol She too is trying to lose weight because we wouldn't always eat ice cream together, but I'd always eat more than her. 

So far, I've had 16 oz. of water, and a super fresh crisp apple and a cup of coffee. Coffee and water combined has driven me crazy just making runs to the rest room. For lunch, I will be having some arroz con pollo en chile verde. I'm sorry, I can't resist my mom's mexican food so I figured I'll eat early, and I'll just have a salad, some jello, and fruit througout the rest of the evening and plenty of water and I  need to start excercising! That's the hardest part. I'm just going to  dance for 30 minutes once I get home. That's excercise and I can sweat, specially when I try to "get low" or try to "make the booty pop" that makes my thighs burn like a motha!  I dont consider myself a great dancer but I try to mimic movements I see and omg it's a pain in the ass literally! I dont have that much strenth on my lower body! Anyway, as long as I break a sweat and get this body moving for 30 minutes I should be okay right??

We will see! For now, I'm going to keep this positive attitude I have about losing some Lbs and just keep myself motivated. I'm hoping if I continue blogging and speaking on it in my YT videos, then I will be forced to follow through and keep at it. That way I can have my girls check my ass too! That always seems to help :)

I'm Fondue Of You - OPI

I'm wearing a lot of neutrals today. Olives, white, and beige so I wanted to add a darker earthy tone onto my nails.  I'm Fondue Of You is another favorite of mine. It's a deep brown burundy wine tone with very tiny burgundy reflects. 

Follow Your Dreams

So easy to say, yet difficult to accomplish. 

I am working nine to five at a winery and for an employer I am no longer happy in.  If I could, I'd quit and be in school full time.  I have been here for three and a half years and I am fed up.  I am fed up of coming to work and having nothing to do, no challenges, no inspiration, no work.  Sure, to many this would seem like the ideal job. Come to work and get paid to do nothing.  It's nice from time to time but like everything, in due time it gets old.

I have been searching and looking for other opportunities and the economy is bad.  I hesitate about applying in other places because I know I will be taking a serious pay cut but now I'm really considering it.  I rather get paid less and do something I love or at least enjoy than get paid bick bucks to do something or nothing at all that interests me.

I dont even like wine for god's sake.

I feel like an outkast sometimes.  I'm here working amongst poeple I have no common interests with.  Everyone around here always talks about golfing and drinking wine. I rather talk about tequila shots and the Lakers.

I'm the youngest adult in the building, I've been casted off to a little corner office and I feel isolated from humanity. I'm so glad school has started  because I get more interaction with people. This really really sucks and I'm tired. I'm tired of being a duck sitting in water. I need to find a new job even if it means getting paid a lot less. I figure I rather find something local, maybe get paid less but avoid spending as much on gas which could even things out.

Then again I worry.

I worry because my mother is older now and having her live with  me is awesome. It's been a great help to both of us when it comes to saving money and sharing bills. I worry because she's just turned 59 and she's tired. I'm tired for her.  I'm tired of seeing her work and work and work. She doesn't need to be working anymore.  She's also up for surgery again. Two surgeries.  I'm actually taking her to the Dr today. I'm going to try and convince him to disable her permanently. She doesn't need to be working anymore, it's time she just relax. She's worked enough.

I worry because this job pays so well and I have been sticking it through for that reason. Now that my mother is home and we share bills I figure I could possibly get a part time job and do more full time education to finish faster but my worry is not making enough to care for the two of us.  Right now I can support her and I off my salary but if I chose to leave and take a pay cut I worry we won't cut it and that's when I'm stuck between the wall and a blade.

I have given up so much and I dont want to be miserable and regret things later in life.  Sure I'm happy, but I'm not completely happy and this job is making me miserable.  Sometimes I wish they'd fire me. I ask myself why I even come to work if I dont do much around here.  Last week we were told there were some facilities being shut down and one facility downsized their staff by half.  I was hoping they'd do some restructuring here and even eliminate my position so I can get unemployment and go to school.

I have been working since I was fourteen years old and the I only used unemployment for a week when I was 18 because I found a job in a heartbeat. Since then I have been employed and now with the economy the way it is and the lack of jobs I figure why not just get unemployment, find a part time job, and go to school full time.  If only things were as easy.  I dont want to get fired because I dont want to ever say that on an application, plus it's just not the way to leave a company. I dont want to be remembered as a girl that was fired.

I'm just venting, throwing a rant. I don't know what will happen, but right now I'm going to do some job hunting. I'm not one to settle, but I've already spent 3 years settled at this place, I'm sure I can settle for something better than this and that will make me happy and with a little more challege.  Maybe this job is the reason for so much stress and procrastination. I dont have the energy to do anything because I dont do much as it is at work and all t hat is taken home with me. I don't need this anymore. I'd quit right now if I could, but I can't. I'm not financially stable and I need a job to survive unlike others who solely rely on their parents or have their full parents support. My mother supports my decisions, but I'm not about to rely on her paycheck, we'd  be screwed specially if she's disabled which I'm hoping for because she sholdn't be working anymore.

So you see, I have so many goals and aspirations I want to accomplish and so many dreams to follow, yet I'm stuck in a rut because I have obligations to meet. It's so easy to say follow your dreams until you are forced to do otherwise because of one reason or another. Needless to say, I'm still following them and I'll be chasing them for god knows how long but I'll catch them eventually, that I guarantee.

Wishlist-Hips & Curves

I promise to buy myself one of these items this year! If I'm lucky I'll have two by the end of the year.  I am a fan of lingerie, bustiers and corsets. I love wearing them for myself. I feel so damn sexy and empowering. Funny thing is I dont like wearing them in front of the fellas. When my ex and I lived together he'd ask me to wear them for him and I never would. Instead I'd take pictures in them and send them to him as a way to keep things enticing.

Today, I feel a lot more comfortable with my sexuality, my body, and my comfort zone has broadened. I've stepped out the box a lot more this past year and will continue to do so.

I also want to buy some of these corsets because I have a photoshoot I want to do around them and so many creative ideas. Like I said, one of the main reasons I love lingerie is because of the feeling of empowerment I get from wearing it. It feels amazing to be in control of my own body, my own sexuality, being a woman never felt so good <3.

Anyway...off my tangent...here are the corsets I have been eyeballing for the past year and a half with some new styles added. I must get my hands on one of these before the end of the year!

Valentina Steel Boned Underbust

Marquessa Steel Boned Silk Corset



Seraphina Steel Boned Silk Corset

Daisy Embroidered Basque

  

Baronessa Steel Boned Silk Corset



Bellatrix Steel Boned Leather Corset

 One of my favorites is the Seraphina Corset. This can be used as a sexy top for a night out--At least I know I'd wear it! The Bellatrix is another favorite. It's for all the naughty girls out there, and even if you ain't naughty, this corset screams Naughty and very Mis Behaved :). I beleive everyone has a little naughty side screaming to get out, wewather you are timid, or afraid to let it out, I know it's in there somewhere and with one of these on it's surly to come out.

I hesitate so much because they are so pricy! I've found the most affordable corsets at Hips & Curves. I have so many ideas wrapped around these corsets it drives me crazy! I have made my mind up and will defintely get my hands on one of these babies soon and when I do, I will do a creative photoshoot wearing them and it will be hot! (and tasteful).

Baguette Me Not - O.P.I

Hey there,

Thought I'd share one of my favorite polishes called Baguette Me Not by O.P.I. It's a beautiful color I find useful anytime of the year. It's a beautiful rosy-salmon-coral colored matte shade.

I took these about two weeks ago when my nails were a bit longer. I chopped them off earlier this week to start fresh and care for them better. I'll be wearing a new color next week so I'll do another post soon. 

Club Night

I went out with my girls Saturday night.  I wore a top I bought on my 22nd B-day and since then had yet to wear it again.  I don't know why I took so long to wear it again considering it's such a beautiful top.  I wore it with some blue denim leggings and some black peep toe slingback heels and went with a smokey  eye with a touch of blue to match my earrings and blue denim leggings.

By the time I got home I was pretty hungover and couldn't take a picture of my complete outfit but here are a few other pictures I'd like to share of my makeup and part of my outfit and of course fun times with my girls.

I had a great time. Liz-o flaked on us to spend time with her boy toy so she missed out on a night of fun, but I'm sure she had some fun of her own :). I'll be starting the Spring semester tomorrow and told my mom I wouldn't be going out for a few weeks until I figured out a schedule for homework and what not. I have been going out non-stop the past month and I need a break!

Overseas Haul

I've been browsing Yours Clothing for quite some time now and I finally decided to make a purchase after reading a lot of positive reviews on their site.  Their sizing is different from the US so I was glad I knew what my measurements were before placing my order. I didn't want to order too much for that same reason so I only ordered two items.  I was online at Torrid going through their clerance sale and I was about to make a purchase when I decided to browse for other stuff online.  I now feel kind of guilty because I could have purchased five or six items from Torrid for the price I paid for the two from Yours.  Either way, I felt I needed to get it over with and place an order just so I know for myself how they work. 

Within about a minute of placing my order online, I get a call from Chase Fraud Prevention services. They wanted to verify I had placed an order from overseas. I thought that was pretty awesome!

Anyway...I hope this whole purchase was worth it! Depending on how my experience goes will determine if I"ll buy from Yours again since shipping is what bumped up my total cost.

Here are the two items I purchased...I really really hope they fit because I can't wait to rock these two items!



Black Puff Sleeve Velvet Tunic



Black Beaded Neckline Jumpsuit

Feeling the Blues

I was having one of those days where you just don't feel like smiling because you feel nothing is worth smiling about. Obviously, there are many things worth smiling about...I was just having one of those days. I feel like I've had this little cloud hovering over me the past couple of weeks and it's just been raining on me nonstop.

I have been feeling a little better, sometimes it's a matter of really saying FUCK IT. 

I did that this Friday when I said I needed to stop being EMO and start being myself again! I needed to get out, distract myself, dance, listen to music, party & bullshit and what better than to do so with my favorite girls in the world! I had a great time and I'm so happy I got out and enjoyed myself, stress and worry free!

I am so blessed to have these two girls in my life! I have known them for eight years now and I'm glad we continue building memories and pick up where we leave off each time. I love my girls!

xoxo

Mayra