Makeup Job - Smokey Purple

Hey world,

One of the things I do on call is makeup.  It's not my passion, nor a job, but it brings in extra income from time to time.  My co-workers wife wanted her makeup done the day they baptized their two boys and called upon me to get the job done.

I think she looked amazing and she has beautiful eyes!  I think I need to learn how to do hair and maybe add that on my list of services offered :)

Fragrance Collection

I was asked months ago to do a video on Youtube with my fragrance collection.  I do not have the time to do the video now (actually I'm just being lazy and procrastinating), but I'll probably get around to making one sometime over the weekend and maybe jump on the YT video making bandwagon again.  FOr now, I figured I'd share a picture of my current(as its constantly growing) collection as a sneak peak.

xoxo
Mayra

AWOL

Hey world,

I've been MIA for quite some time now.  My last post was sometime in April or May and we're just about halfways through June.  Time has been flying, where does it go??

I've been busy with life.  I've been going out, having fun, and concentrating on school.  I didn't do so good this last Spring semester but I'm looking forward to the Summer and Fall semesters coming up.  I can't beleive it's going to be my 2nd consecutive year in school without dropping out.  I've been in and out of college since 05.  I could have been done a long time ago but the job is getting done now and no regrets. 

I'll be turning a quarter century in 46 Days!

I'm trying to get in shape for my b-day.  Some of the things I'm doing are the Insanity workouts. OMG, they are kicking my ass and I'm doing a half ass job because I'm so out of shape it's impossible to do everything the way it should but I try.  I'm sweating bullets within 10 minutes and I'm doing some insane out of this world workouts I would never have done on my own.  The first week, (actually first 3 days) my body was sore all over.  Everything hurt.  It hurt to breathe, to walk, to sit on the toilet even, but it was that feel good pain.  The kind of pain you love to hate because you know it feels awful but it does you so good.

My first trip following my 25th b-day I'll be visiting Vegas again for a weekend.  I'll be celebrating in San Francisco along with friends as well the night of. I'm pretty excited and can't wait.  It's going by so quickly.  I just look forward to 30 and where I'll be then.  I've come a long ways till now, so I can only expect to move further and climb higher.

Since my last post, I've been to Vegas, been to my first Laker Game (which they lost), been to my 2nd Baseball game, been a strait up Video Geek playing non stop video games with my little cousin, bought my ass a bike to ride and get more outdoor fresh air and good healthy workout, signed up and paid for a scuba diving certification class that I will take this summer once this crazy weather straitens out and actually warms up, signed up and paid for kayak lessons, and been a lot more independant about getting out without feeling I need to have someone with me.

I've fallen behind on shopping, I feel like my wardrobe is way outdated but i'm in no rush of buying new clothes or shopping for shoes (heels). I've been going to the movies a lot...I've watched First Class, The New Pirates movie...and I been going to Dave and Busters quite a lot.

In regards to the love life...

The "Booty Turned Boyfriend" is a no more. I've cut that "relationship" loose a long time ago. I think that title just messed everything up for me when it was all fine in the beginning. Today he's no longer a booty, but just a friend and a friend I've preferred to keep distance from because quite frankly I'm over it.  Took me long enough...almost 2 years. Then I was talking to this other dude, but I was just not interested so that was a fail before anything even started lol. And then there's this other guy which I really love. He's awesome, fun, sweet, and down to earth, and cute :) BUT I'm just not that into him.

So yea...that's my life since my last post...

I started taking some vitamins I bought yesterday from Costco, called "hair, skin, & nails" we'll see what results those bring...and I def have a lot of plans for my b-day :) I'm talking about total makeover...a different look and a whole lot of change :) We'll see how that goes too

Till the next post...

Getting to Vegas

So the plan was to leave at 9am. It's now 10:52 and were just heading out to Manuel's house who lives 30 minutes south from where I live.

I picked up Jose and took him to my house from which he and I were picked up from. I've known Jose and Manuel for almost 8 years now. I met them back in school when I was 16 and we've all stayed in touch since we Meg up again about 2 years ago.

This is the first time I'm taking a trip with these two. Ive had drunken nights with them both but that's something else considering we all knew each other and I was In my comfort zone.

This weekend However is different! I'm currently riding down south 101 with 3 strangers and it feels awkward. I'm riding with Manuel's gf, gf's sister n brother, Jose n myself. I'm listening to "All of the lights" And that's exactly what I want to happen. Turn off all the lights and be in a dark quiet room. I'm nervous, scared, and anxious all at once. Once we get to Manuel's house well be switching up cars and I'm dreading where I'll be an who I'll be riding with. I'm hoping I could ride with Manuel and Jose both because I'd be the mist comfortable but well see what happens.

Right now I want to quit. I want to turn around and go back and be in the comfort of my house but I have to go through with this. Im scared because it's different and because Im stepping into an unknown area and away from what I'm used to and what I can predict with happen.

I don't have none if that right now and it's quite scary but if I don't do this and take this chance then I'll never experience anything. I really want to have fun but I'm still scared.

I really don't know what to expect. I don't know how the rest of the crew is and how they will like me or how well get along! I really don't care what ppl think of me whether they like me or not but at least I have the option of removing myself or avoiding awkward situations-something I don't have this weekend.

let's just hope all my fear and anxiety is just that...anxiety. I'm gonna make the best of this trip. I'll be back later with n update!

Wish me luck!

Xoxo
Mayra

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Adele-Rolling in the Deep

First and foremost, by far one of my favorite songs RIGHT NOW. The first time I heard this song about a week ago, instant chills ran up and down my arms, back, and had my hairs stand on end.  Adele's voice is amazing, beautiful, touching, and moving.

Second, it's one of those songs that touches home one way or another. How many of us have not felt exactly what she is siging? How many of us havn't been hurt before? Had another hold your heart and "play it to the beat"? How many of us don't get involved with someone who you think is gaurding your heart, only to find out you have been played with and never saw it coming? I know I have.

Here are some of my favorite quotes and why:

The scars of your love remind me of us


They keep me thinking that we almost had it all


The scars of your love, they leave me breathless


I can't help feeling


We could have had it all

Do you all remember the PO? You know, the guy I talked so much about a few months ago? The guy I was so starstruck in a daze over? Well he's whom I think each time I hear this song.  The quote above explains why.  I feel scarred and I will probably forever remain scarred by the PO because till this day I have yet to meet him and with time I somehow began to love him and somehow I still do today. I've tried countless times pushing him away, distancing myself and avoiding all communication but find it impossible to do so and so we remain.   I've been taken away by him and his personality and how well he's gotten to know me and my personality despite not physically knowing me, as I him.  And like Adele sings away in her song, "I can't help feeling we could have had it all". Today, I dont know how I feel, I guess I'm just happy  he's back in my life and we're friends and my expectations from him are no longer the same.  I rather keep him as a friend, than not at all.

You had my heart inside of your hand


And you played it to the beat

The PO knew I cared because I would tell him so and because it was obvious.  I was starting to feel like a girl in high school with a first time crush and he was well aware of it too.  He said he was falling for me, big mistake.  I know today he has love for me because he genuinely knows me, maybe more than I know myself and that's kind of scary.  Understandably we didn't meet for a number of reasons, but he kept leading me on to beelive otherwise hence played my heart to the beat. One day I had enough and had to really evaluate the situation and reiterate my feelings.

After two long months, I can say I'm good! I'm glad we're talking again, but my perspective has changed and I'm not caught up in the fairytale anymore and Adele's song doesn't hurt me as it would have had I heard it a month and a half ago.  It just touches me and makes me want to sing it out loud from the bottom of my soul!  I can feel her emotion through her song, a song sung from experience that will be heard and sung by many women across the country I'm sure.