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Friday, September 24, 2010

Outfits of the Week

Happy Friday!

TGIF! I have had such a busy and crazy week. Juggling between work and school, I feel I sound like a broken record. I'm constantly complaining about how busy I am. I have  never been this busy. Last semester I had 3 classes and worked too, but this fall semester I totally forgot to take into consideration Harvest season.

Harvest season is the busiest time of year for any winery. It's when we harvest grapes, crush them, and process the juice into wine.  I have so much data entry it's ridiculous. Sometimes my whole day is consumed by data entry.
Other day's I'm running around like a chicken with my head cut off. I'm setting up tastings for VIP visitors, I'm picking up lunches out of town, and I'm setting up picnic areas at the private park we have towards the back of the vinyards. I dont mind busy days because they make days go by that much faster, but now with the Fall semester in session, I didn't take into mind just how busy I normally get at work. I'm guessing next Fall semester I'm only going to take 2 classes and during the Spring I can do my regular 3 or 4 classes because work is not so hectic and I go back to working 4 day's a week which leaves me with 3 day weekends hence giving me more time for study, homework, and even some me time. 

Right now my day's go by so fast, my weekends feel like a blur. I feel I wake up Saturday morning and next thing I know I'm back to work on Monday. I feel I get no rest and I never have time for myself! Im managing though, it will all be worth it in the end!

Anyway, enough abot all the stress in my life, now let's get to the fun part. I'm going to add some pictures of some of the outfits I wore this week and last Friday. I wasn't able to do videos for each outfit but did manage to get a few. For now, I'll leave you with these pictures and stay tuned for some of the outfits in a video as well :)

Hope everyone is enjoying their day! xoxo Mayra

Friday, September 17th, 2010 
What I'm Wearing:
Purple Cardigan - Ross
Purple Top with Black Splatter (looks like leopard but its not) - JCP
Jeggings - Torrid
Knee High Boots - Ross

And then....because ya'll know how much I love taking pictures, I decided to take some creative shots in our restroom.  Here's what I came up with:

Saturday, September 18th 2010 
I'm wearing a lot of earthy and neutral tones. This is the day I went to the Jazz Festival with my good friend Mazo. I'll have to do a separate post just for that day so I can share with you all some Do's and Don'ts we came across. The day was full of LOL's and fun! So stay tuned for that post.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010
I really wanted you guys to see my boots! lol So I'm being all acrobatic in the restroom! lol
 This picture looks funny, It's not my favorite but it's the only full body pic I have for this outfit!
You can't really see the boots because of the lighting. I had my co-worker take it for me and she just wanted to get it over with I was like "gee, thanks" lol. Anyway, it will do for now. I'll probably wear this outfit again soon.  This picture was taken in the downstairs area of our winery. The lighting is perfect, but I didn't want to ask my co-worker for too much so I figured where she took the picture was fine, now had I taken the picture myself, I woulda been working that damn hallway lol :) Okay...Moving on...

Thursday, September 23rd, 2010

These jeans are becoming one of my favorite pairs!

And finally Today's Friday, September 24th, 2010 OOTD is...
I'll post it later cuz I'm gonna start doing some data entry and quite frankly I havn't even taken a picture yet lol :) Maybe I'll do an OOTD on my lunch break or a makeup tutorial cuz I didn't even do that this morning. Today's outfit is very casual though, once I get a picture I'll insert it here. I'll just show you guys my shoes though, and nope, No heels or flats todays...well Flats yes...but I'm wearing my favorite "tennis" shoes :) I need a new pair cuz these are becoming rinky dinky lol

Okay, So I ended up going to the restroom and taking a quick picture! I look scary lol it was too early anyway...Here's what I'm wearing today. I'll do the makeup and OOTD video this afternoon when I get home since It's Friday, and I ain't got Sh*t to do =) lol Well actually, I  have lots of ish to do, like homework and study for my exam on Monday! lol Hope everyone is enjoying their day :)

I love my Puma's! Puma is my favorite sneaker brand. I know these are all beat up but I love them so much I can't get rid of them quite yet!! I need a new pair bad! =)

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Fall Ready - Face & OOTD

Products Used:
Too Faced Shadow Insurance Primer
Bare Study Paint Pot
MAC Intriguing Scarlet: 6 Warm Eyes Palette (2009 XMas Collection)
(Colors Used: All colors that for the letter "C")
Creme blush in Cheeky
Almay One Coat Nourishing Mascara
Nutmeg Lipliner
Brave New Bronze Lipstick (Style Warriors Collection)
Ultimate Shine Lip-color (Thanks Audrey! Luv it)

I had to deliver those "modelesque" poses for my girl Audrey!
(And I had to liven up the backround so I included some props lol)


Xoxo Mayra!

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Rihanna - Only Girl

So I'm here listening to Rihanna's "Only Girl" again...after writing a big ass blog only to hit "save" and piece of shit slaps me with "please sign in to continue" and therefore I lose it all!! Aint that a fuckn bitch!

I'm super mad right now. I've been having a shitty ass day and now this. Seems like my day is just getting worst by the minute. And now this song is having me want to pull my hair and run on the beach. I guess I'm at that stage of my wonderful single life where I'm just longing to be with somebody (or maybe Its signs of my period) and that's why I'm such an emotional wreck.  But it's funny how, I've been in relationships and I wish I was single and now I'm single and I want a relationship....or not necessarily a relationship...but real love..duh...which evolves from friendship into something more special which then leads to a relationship. I know this time I am not going to settle and that is why I am happy to be single. Life is much easier being on your own. You dont have to worry about giving anyone explanations of anything and you only rely on yourself to make it or break it. So until the right guy comes along, I'm going to enjoy  my single life (and the dating too). I did mention I was quite the dating whore right....hey what can I say, theirs plenty of fish in the sea, so might as well taste a few before you can really stick with one you call a favorite, wouldn't you agree? lol

I listen to this song and I think of him. Seriously, this is my anthem song right now. The lyrics are on point with what I feel and how I wish I could be that girl!!

I'm pretty aggravated at this point. I love and hate this song. Love it because what girl doesn't want to be the only girl for a guy. What girl doesn't wish she had a man that she knew only had eyes for her and didn't even think of being with another girl. What girl doesn't want that reassurance of having a man she can really say is hers and she his. I know I do. What girl doesn't want to have that control over a guy, make him swallow his pride, just as much as he'd do to her. To live your life with that piece of mind knowing you're the only one...must be really nice.

But what if you aren't the only girl. What if there are plenty others. Then ur probably one hating ass bitch right now. I know I am too. lol See, that's why I love and hate this song. I hate it because I'm not the only girl. I wish I was though. I wish I could be. I want to know what being the only girl feels like. Wouldn't you?  Ur probably hating too because you want to be the only girl you get frustrated and you feel you aint that girl and maybe you are just wasting your time, yet you hold on because you want to see if you could be that girl!

Damn it!! I "just want you to make me feel like Im the only girl in the world, like I"m the only one you'll EVER love, like I'm the only one who knows your heart, like I'm the only one who's in command, cuz i'm the only one who understands how to make you feel like a man" damn it!! seriously, like wow Rihanna, you hit home with that one. And the beat! I feel like having a few shots of tequila and just sit back in a dark room in a lounge somewhere, enjoy a drink and listen to this song and just fantasize and dream and stick my head up in the clouds where it will probably remain till I meet the man I'd become the only girl to.

I think I'm at this point in my single life where I'm starting to long for someone (or maybe I'm just about to get my period or something) cuz I'm an emotional wreck lately.

I love and I hate it because as the song plays, my head is up in the clouds with this illusion, this make beleive fantasy guy then once u know the song is over...(sigh)...back to reality...ur alone =) and hating the song for making u want what you dont have...YET.

 I want to meet the guy who I'd be the only girl to. I want him to take me like a thief in the night, hold me like a pillow and make me feel right. I'll tell him I'll my secrets and let him come inside, want him to make me feel like I'm the only girl...or maybe I just want to find the only guy I wont want anyone else over. Yea...that's it too.

[VERSE 1:]
I want you to love me, like I'm a hot guy
Keep thinkin' of me, doin' what you like
So boy forget about the world cuz it's gon' be me and you tonight
I wanna make your bed for ya, then Imma make you swallow your pride

Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world...
Like I'm the only one that's in command
Cuz I'm the only one who understands how to make you feel like a man
Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only one...

[VERSE 2:]
Want you to take me like a thief in the night
Hold me like a pillow, make me feel right
Baby I'll tell you all my secrets that I'm keepin', you can come inside
And when you enter, you ain't leavin', be my prisoner for the night

Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world...
Like I'm the only one that's in command
Cuz I'm the only one who understands, like I'm the only one who knows your heart, only one...

Take me for a ride
Oh baby, take me high
Let me make you first
Oh make it last all night
Take me for a ride
Oh baby, take me high
Let me make you first
Make it last all night

Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world...
Like I'm the only one that's in command
Cuz I'm the only one who understands how to make you feel like a man
Only girl in the world...
Girl in the world...
Only girl in the world...
Girl in the wolrd

This song really hit home!

So Ladies....if you have this...I'M HATING ON YOU! lol j/k...
If you ahve this at home, take care of it, and let him know ur the only girl too because a lot of women have good men and dont even take care of them then when he leaves ur bitchy ass for a girl who truly appreciates it, then you want him back...Kinda like how men dog girls...girls do the same dirty shady shit! So take care of your man you hooch's! Cuz just like women get fed up with men, men do too!


GOOGLE, all I want is for you to give me access to the channel I own! Please!!!

So as I mentioned in my new channel how I no longer have access to my original Youtube Channel I have tried countless times to reset my password, I have searched through forums of help and nothing happens. My problem can't be resolved.

I got an email saying they can't verify I won the channel and therefore can't give me the information.  What I dont understand is why suddently I'm in my channel one day and the next day I can't log in. I just want my channel back. That's all. Is that so hard?? The help support center for Youtube and google sucks! They give you the run around and you can't even describe your problem and the options they give you suck! They dont help at all.

Now my videos will be on YT forever and I can't even go back and delete the account if I wanted. I have my group on there, all my subscribers and everything. I even got an email this morning for partner! lol Ain't that a bitch! I could defintely use some extra change in my pocket cuz I'm a broke student living paycheck to paycheck and times are tough!! But I can't even do that now :(

Anyway...this sucks.

Here's what google says:

Thank you for your report. We've completed our investigation and cannot

return your account at this time. We were unable to verify that you own
this account based on the information you provided.

If you can provide additional information to verify that you own this
account, please visit
http://www.google.com/support/accounts/bin/request.py?ara=1 and submit
another report. Whether we can return access to this account depends on
the strength and accuracy of your responses, so be sure to provide as much
information as possible. If you're unsure about specific dates or
information, provide your best guess.


Monday, September 13, 2010

He said he's falling for me

September 10th, 2010. He said he was falling in love with me. How could this be. I ask myself and I wonder if this is possible. I have been wanting to meet him for the past 9 months and it seems as though the time to meet him might be approaching sooner than I had expected.

I almost lost interest, well no. I wouldn't say I lost interest, but I started to become hopeless in the idea of actually  meeting the Parole Officer one day. I have been talkign to him for 9 months now and he refuses to meet up with me when we live in the same town and all.

I know a lot of women must think I'm quite the fool for continuing this "relationship" I have with the Parole Officer, but other women don't know what I do and they dont feel what I do. I never really had this heart/gut feeling about a guy like I do with him. Maybe it's because he seems like my true prince charming and I fall into that fairytale of a dream, being swept off my feet by this wonderful guy and build a life with. But then I step  back into reality and realise how scared I am.

I have already been in two relationships. One lated 2 1/2 years and the other 3 years. At one point I realised I didnt' see the rest of my life with either one of my exes, and well...they became just that. I try to look back on my relationships and I feel nothing for my exes. My first ex, Victor I have a lot of love for, and he's like a shoulder to cry on and a good friend and nothing more. He really loved me and I loved him but he just wasn't the man of my dreams and therefore we split. Roger, I dont know what the hell I was thinking when I was with him. I changed so much for him and although I dont have regrets, I really really dont understand why I put up with him for 3 years. I was truly blinded by him. Although we ended the relationship on good terms, I really dont care talking to him, following up, or just having anything to do with him. He was a phony. A total fake. A fraud. And for that, I feel this annoying feeling toward him. I get annoyed at myself for even allowing myself to have been with him for so long. Anyway...that's all said and done. I guess my point here is, and what I'm trying to say is I've never been in love.

Well, yes. I have been. I've only been in love once, and that was with my frist boyfriend ever. He truly swept me off my feet and I do got lots of love for him today. We still talk, communicate, and hook up from time to time for coffee and chit chat. Nothing more. He's married, he knows all about my ex's and my flings and he's never been one to judge me. I know he loves me just like I love him and it's a beautiful friendship we have.  Sometimes I wonder if he's my soulmate and if we'll end up together in another lifetime since we didn't make it together in this one. Although it is to soon to say we didn't make it together, becasause for all I know, we can hook up 20 years from now. This life is crazy.

Anyway. I've never loved a guy the way I loved Noe. And I'm not trying to make comparisons here, but I've never felt a love and pain for a guy the way I did for him.

I want to feel that again. I want to be swept off my feet by a guy. I want to have a beautiful loving relationshop. I want to fall in love and stay in love and fall in love all over again with the same guy. I want to feel that fire, those butterflies, and passion. I dont want it to be temporary, and I dont want it to go away once you end up living together. I really want to love and be loved. I want to feel appreciated by a man and I want to know what it feels like to be truly loved and not just LOVE somebody. 

I told myself this time I'd do everything so different. I've moved in with my two ex boyfriends too quick into the relationship and maybe that's why they ended fast too. I tell myself this time I'm going to take it super slow. I'm really going to let myself be known and get to know somebody.  I'm going to question if it's actually someone I continue seeing myself with and if not, then move on. I dont want to waste anyone's time or mine. I want to know what it feels like to just KNOW you want to be with someone for the rest of your life and I want to know what the thought of living without someone in your life feels like. I want to feel that certainty of not seeing myself with anyone else but that one guy.

I know this is crazy, but sometimes I feel like the Parole Officer just might be that guy.  He said he's falling for me, and until he told me that did I begin to feel nervous. I have been trying to meet this guy for so long and he finally tells me he's falling for me.  I'm scared. I know I'm going to take the risk, meet him eventually and see where things go, but in general...I'm scared. I dont want to be in and out of relationshiops my whole life. I want to marry someone one day, have kids, and settle down, and build a future and a family with someone I know loves me for me and wont ever leave me, cheat on me. I just want someone to respect me like I will respect them.

Sometimes I am afraid that I'm the one that doesn't know how to love. Sometimes I wonder if all my life I'll be in and out of relationships and if I'll keep falling out of love with guys. I wonder and wonder all the more and then I tell myself, I'll keep falling out of love with them until the right guy comes along who'll make me fall in love all over again.

I wonder what will be of the Parole Officer. He truly seems like Prince Charming and I'm his Cinderella.
For now, I'll end it here...but I have so much on my mind and need to let it out.

Friday, September 3, 2010

Mr. Hitman

My my my Mr. Hitman...you sure are one hit! I woke up with the biggest smile on my face this morning and as I type I can't help but shake my head (smh) and just smile from ear to ear.  I'm smiling so damn hard my eyes begin to water and my cheeckbones begin to hurt!

Wow...I'm starstruck.

Oh Lizzy! I can't help but think of you each time :)

Thursday, September 2, 2010

The Parole Officer

So after 8 1/2 long months I finally came to the conclusion that I've been wasting my time on this guy and for what? Nothing. I can't completely say I wasted my time because I never fully devoted myself to this guy but somewhere in my mind I allowed my head to stay in the clouds with this one.

Yesterday, I asked him to take a chance on me so we can meet and get to know each other in person and he said No. I can't begin to explain just how I felt. My ego was shattered. I felt as I had my heart broken yet I'm not in love.

All this time I told myself he was too good to be true, and that he was just too good for me. I know I'm not supposed to ever place anyone above me but he was truly my prince charming. He had it all. I began to feel like he wasn't for me after I got to know him better. He's the type of guy that was brought up in a good home and had a nice living growing up where I on the other hand, grew up poor and even lived in a car at one point in my life.

I'd often tell him we were from two different worlds. I was the girl from the wrong side of the tracks. I grew up humble and poor and he was raised in a good home and had a nice up bringing. Prom King at his school, water polo and football jockey too. And me, getting kicked out of High SChools and barely even completing my education. Although I do not regret my upbrining and am not ashamed to say how I grew up and how broke my family was, I tend to feel intimidated by men who had a better upbringing than I did. Now I'm not saying they are better than me, I'm just saying I find it intimidating from a personal perspective on how to react or interact with these poeple.

This whole time I'm talking to him I'm beginning to feel emotions for him and grow feelings for a guy I've never even met. We're from the same town, and for all I know could possibly bump into him in a store or on the street someday and won't even know it. He said I had a lot of qualities he liked and that I wasn't like other girls and that he liked me, yet he never took a chance to get to know me and today I beleive he never will. He'll always remian a fairytale fantasy and I'll continue to be the hopeless romantic I am today.

All this time I'm thinking I'm Cinderella and he's my prince. Well Cinderella hasn't found her prince yet, but I'm not going to settle either. He's the true epiphany of the man I want. He's educated, has a career established, no kids, open minded, funny, smart & dumb (my kind of funnY) and doesn't let me have my way which I hate and love at the same time. I hate it because if it was upto me, I would have met him a long time ago, but since it's not upto me I probably never wil meet him now.

Yesterday we kind of got into it. I swear everytime we argue or dont agree on something it feels as though I'm having an argument with a boyfriend and I hate it. I just told him to give me strait answers. I've been talking to him for 8 months and I just wanted to know if I should get my head out of the clouds because I felt I was just being strung along and I just needed to know where he stood. Well, he said the way it was, was working for him fine and if it didn't work for me then I could move on because he didn't want to waste my time.



Okay. So after a big let down, I figured maybe Hitman came into my life at the perfect moment. I feel heart broken over a guy I have never even met, and now the only way I know to releive that heartache (or dissapointment) is by distracting myself with another guy and what better guy than Hitman?

Their's a spanish saying "Un clavo saca a otro clavo." Basically it translates to "one nail, takes out another" and what that means is since The Parole officer is nailed in deep, the only way to get him out from under is by tapping him out with another nail. That nail being Hitman. Now I know it's not the right thing to do. Trying to get over one guy with another is probably the worst thing to do because I'm setting Hitman up for failure, but right now...it seems like the only thing I can do to really get the Parole Officer out of my mind and maybe rid these ridiculous emotions I managed to somehow work up inside for this beautiful stranger.

Now the question is what to do. The Parole Officer pretty much left the ball on my court and said it was upto me to continue talking. Now I'm not going to completely rid him from my life, I already did that mistake a few months ago and I felt horrible. I will defintely give myself some time and maybe just keep a little distance and possibly continue talking but now I knwo where I stand with him and I'm not letting or allowing myself to work up any further emotion for him. It is what it is and that is that. I'm going to live my life, focus on school, continue dating and enjoy myself and not hold back on others for him. In the end, I dont want to end up like this old hag waiting on him...

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Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Men of My Life

The Parole Officer-I met him online in January on a mobile communications site. I talk to him day in and day out. It feels as though we're together and yet we're not. We're from the same town, same everything yet we havn't met. To many, it may seem he's hiding something, he's probably married, but he's not. He's just been hurt before and he's very gaurded with his heart. Totally understandable. He's like my prince charming, my knight in shining armor. He seems like he's the whole package yet I have yet to meet him. I've told him to fuck off twice already, I been talking to him for almost 8 months now and nothing, not even a phone conversation. I tell myself I'm a fool for this one, yet something in my heart tells me he's different and that I should see where this goes. So far, no where. But I have gotten to know him, and I like him. I really do. I know we will meet one day, I just hope he doesn't keep me waiting too long.

Fantasy Lover: Literally. I've known him since I was 19. The first time I saw him I said "oh my, who's this, I need to talk to him." I didn't know if he liked me or if I was even someone he might be interested in and to my surprise, later he tells me he had his eyes on me for a whole year before I even noticed him! Crazy ain't it. I met him when I worked in Human Resources. He broke a copier machine we had and he just stood there watch me trying to fix it. He just stared and stared and I was quite the nervous wreck because he wasn't helping he just kinda waited to see if I'd fix the damn machine. Anyway, when I finally fixed it, I let him know he better not break it again lol. Later after he left the office, I was trying to come up with ways on how to approach this guy but was scared because I worked in HR and if I hit on him and he didn't like me or felt I came on too strong or even said I hit on him, my ass would be fired in a heart beat! Anyway, I stared at my computer screen coming up with an email that wasn't obvious I was intrigued, I remember making a ajoke and to my surprise he responded. And we went on from there. After we hooked up and went on a few dates, is when he tells me he's had his eye on me for a whole year. He said to me, we'd cross paths and that I never even noticed he was alive! How sad is that!! I'm crazy about a guy who said had his eyes on me for a whole year and I didn't even notice him!! Anyway...he's been my fantasy lover since...and you will know why in due time.

Afghan Lover - Tall dark and handsome. Educated, career oriented and oriental! I met him right after my breakup with Roger. He's a friend with benefits, a fling and nothing more. He gave me what I wanted and still was a friend with no strong feelings of love or affection I needed to worry about. Well not until a few weeks ago. Tony and I had an agreement when we first met. I told him I wanted nothing serious, I just wanted to enjoy myself and date and have a good time. He said he wanted the same thing. We'd date, go out, watch moveis, have dinner and what not and give each other company and learn and talk about our different backrounds and what not. Lately, he's been talking about how he "loves me" and that threw me off by surprise. He then began to demand I drop plans just to spend time with him and I'm sorry, but I'm not going to drop my plans for you! That wasn't the agreement. The agreement was we got together when our agendas were open and we had time to see each other, not when he wanted or when I felt like it either. I've already dropped friiends in the past for men and it's not worth it, and for him being "just a friend" defintely defintely not worth it. He got mad...and it's been kinda iffy since then. Havn't really heard much from him, but I know he'll come around eventually, but right now I'm still on my high horse and I'm not ready to come off just yet.

Mr. Hitman: Oh my, Mr. Hitman was a hit indeed. Just thinking of him makes me melt lol. I sound like such a whore lol but I'm not so it's all good lol. Anyway, Mr. Hitman is probably the youngest, no wait...IS the youngest guy I've probably EVER dated. He's 25. He looks like he could be my bodygaurd and I've never had someoene make me feel so small! And trust me, theres nothing small about me! lol (well maybe just my toes) lol. Anyway, he has Hazel-green eyes, a smile that will drive you crazy and make you forget all the things you were once ever mad about, eyes that stare deep penetrating your mind and just make you shy away! And his hands...his hands are so big! (I love big hands) and they feel so good around my waist (makes me feel I have a tiny waist) which I dont! but it's the thought that counts lol. He's very tall, 6'3. 1/2 Italian and 1/2 German and he's pretty mellow and down to earth. Super sweet and great kisser! lol. The only downside to Mr. Hitman is that he smokes and I'm not a fan of smokers! So that could be a problem. For now...I'm still getting to know him

My Love Life

Monday, September 6th will mark a one year anniversary for which I have been single and independant! I can't beleive it's been a year since I decided to walk away from a relationship in which I found myself miserable and unhappy! I've never in my life been single this long and although at first the thought scared me, today I feel awesome.  I've been single for a year and it feels great. I truly dont feel as though I need a man in my life, although from time to time it's natural I feel lonely. Then I think about all the BS I put up with being in a relationship that I convince myself I RATHER be lonely than put up with someone else's BS lol.

I've had my share of dates since I've been single. I am defintely not looking for anything serious but I'm not shutting myself out of love or will I deny myself the opportunity for something to happen if it feels right. I have been hurt in the past, that's a given. But I'm not going to let my past define my future.  Since I've broken up with Roger, I've had my share of romantic encounters all of which I still stay in touch with today!

Now a lot of people talk about "friends with benefits" and how they can't "sleep around" or they can only be in a "long-term" relationship to be intimate with someone.  I can't say I'm like that. I'm the type of girl that I like to get to know someone before I lay in bed with them. Doesn't quite mean I have to be in a relationship or "serious" with them, I just like to know who I'm getting involved with, and we have to be on the same page at all times. Now this doens't mean I'm sleeping with everyone I meet either! Don't get it twisted and dont get ahead of yourself either and most importantly, don't be so quick to judge.

I'm very open and honest. I'm straight forward and I dont like beating around the bush.  It's much easier speaking the truth than keeping up with lies.  I'm the same way with men.  I'm very straight forward about my interests and what I'm looking for. I'm not going to settle for less, and if the guy I'm dating doesn't have what I'm looking for or we dont click up in a way I like, my friendship is always open to them, and they will know theirs no love potential and we move on from there. Some men like Mike, decide to kick my ass to the curve because they can't have a "friend" they are in-like with so to them, it's easier to keep distance and I totally respect that.
So with that said, I will be introducing new posts that will talk about my "love life" or my "romantic encounters" or dates I go on. I will also speak on my previous relationships and experiences those relationships have given me. 

For now, I will tell you I've been talking to this guy, we'll call him "the parole officer." I've been talking to him since January and I have yet to meet him. I'll give you the details about him in a separate post. I just recently met another guy, his name is Colby and he looks like a younger version of "The Hitman." Oh my, he is sexy lol. And...then theres Jorge...oh em gee. This guy...just takes my breath away...and I've had this crazy infatuation with him since I was 18...now that's a story all on it's own. And finally theirs Tony, whom we'll call my "Afghan Lover."  I met Tony in October of last year and you can say he's my "good friend"...yea you know, the type with benefits...although, I did have to tell him to kick rocks earlier this month because he was getting to demanding for being just a friend! So we'll see how that works out, anyway, defintley not looking for anything serious there, he's just a fun guy to hang out with if you know what I mean.

And if you've read this far, I invite you to check out another blog I created abot 2 years ago.  It was private for a long time and I decided I need to do more creative writing so if you are interested, check it out. The links are througout the blog, if you're interested I'm sure you will find them all on your own :)